What Happens to an Artist in Unnatural Habitats

The Artist's Definition of Immaturity: Refusing to see reason and deciding on the most inexplicably stupid course of action in order to get a sense of self-satisfaction.

Now the difference with the societal definition of immaturity is that it usually has something to do with age. I've realised, with plenty of mishaps I might add, that immaturity has little to do with age, but rather a lot to do with who you are as a person and how willing you are to deal with reality.

Now age for me is a funny thing, I've been told that I'm wiser than my years, that I look and act a great deal older than what I am... But the truth is that sometimes I make such idiotic decisions that I have to wonder how mature I really am. Thankfully these idiotic moments have always related to dealing with people rather than life decisions.

Now, in the last few months, by choice or by habit, I've chosen to ignore a certain individual who doesn't seem to find me all that charming. And to be honest I cannot blame that individual who shall not be named. For the sake of easy reading however, let's call this individual X.

Well X doesn't think too highly of me from what I can tell, Not that I've actually spoken to X. That's where immaturity comes in. Why haven't I spoken to X? Because X didn't "make the effort to speak to me first". Back when this thought popped into my brain it felt so deliciously satisfying not to speak back, even though I was given a variety of opportunities to do so. Now about a month later, these acts of immaturity are about to catch up with me.

I will most likely be meeting X in person some time this week, and now I don't have my artwork to hide behind. See what happens when you strip an artist away from their work? They have no idea how to act properly! I moaned and groaned about this situation, but I didn't do anything constructive about it... Now I have to deal with something that could have been put to rest long ago.

Well, I have grown up in a lot of ways in the last few years, but tomorrow will be the ultimate test of whether I'm mature enough to handle life without any art to hide behind. Now I have to learn to be the bigger person and grow up a little. Hopefully I'll return unscathed to the next post.

Until we meet again
Talia